I dont know.

Im feeling down, stress up, thinking a lot, sad, angry and so on lah. It's no used feeling this way, things doesn't seem to change. Cry until cannot cry also nvr change anything. I wander just wander when things can get better even if it didn't at least give some hope that it will lah. Effort or what lah. Past seems to repeat itself lah. I got no comment about this. This time im just going with the flow. If shit gonna happen or happen, im just gonna be like -.- ! Sick and tired of it lah.

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I LOVE IKHSAN!

Btw, kiki just dedicated a song for me , Growing Up by Auburn.

Thanks hun, LOVED! I swore i tear up.

Thanks for everything :)

I love you .

I LOVE YOU!

IM FAT !!!!

enta.

I moved on. I do but I dont know why i still have this fear in me. Aiyah, maybe i think too much, There's a lot of thing i've yet to tell him. I love him so badly and i know he does too. I should be mature enough to decide what i really want now. Yeah i should. I'm missing you :(

I miss you.

I dont blame you for treating me this way, but im just scare history repeat itself, you ignoring me so suddenly, but now i know the reason why. I will have to accept it no matter what. About the single thing, yes i know sometime being single sucks and the jealousy arise when you see couples and stuff, but trust me you will find that someone one day, but maybe just not now. You dont have to be sad cause i know you're stronger then this. I'm sorry if i'm abandoning you for you know who but trust me im not. Hope we'll be okay soon.

YAY!!! Me and Yati won for the best photo taken :)

Our winning PHOTO :)

CONGRATZ to US :):)

reatarded. DEEPAVALI !

HAHAH , that day was a blast! hahah

YATI you should know why . lol

entahs naks cakaps apes?!

I miss this gurlx , Ayeesyah Ong ! Walao, now come back already miss everything. Haiyoh. Shit lohh. Now in Singapura, i start comparing it with HK . Pe je ehh. PERANGAI TITS ( Copyrights of Ayeesyah Ong) Me is bored gurl. Dontch knowch whatch toch doch or writech anymorech. hahach. faham2 ehh . We pout our lips like its HOT ! Jyeahh!!!! Oh just now went to wedding hor, then ahh aiyoh the girl not that pretty lehh. aiyohh, why like that. but lantak dorang arhh they happy can liaoxx. hahahx. Okay go . Cee BYE!

Happy Belated Birthday YATI!

To Nur Shayati,

I'm so sorry i couldnt get to wish you. i cant go online. Im really sorry. During your birthday we were in China. They got no computers there. I wanted to borrow someone elses laptop but almost everyone is using. i may be the last to wish. But you know what i nvr forget your birthday. When we reach the hotel in China, we settle down and when the clock strikes 12, i wishes you a very happy birhday in my heart. I even wish you in the morning too. Only i know and now you too. I read your blog. I'm so sorry. I'll be back tomorrow. We be close again okay. :) Wait for your present:)

true friends.

I met this girl during my trip. She an actress. Sometimes i wander if she really herself or not. I'm so confused. She's always there to listen to me. She's only 149cm tall. She always get angry with me, but i still love her. She understand me. The cutest thing you can ever imagine. You may thing she's a small little person that you can mess around. BUT you are wrong. To me, there's up and down during this HK trip for me. But she never failed to be there for me. There is this two crazy girl too. They are simply the best. The relationship we created during this trip is really AWESOME. Thanks you all. Well the girl I've been talking about is actually Ayeeshah Ong. Cute kan ?! hahah memang pun. Okay go. Her favourite thang ----> terima kasih banyak2 sama-sama ehh !

Me is in Hongkong .

Retarded. In HK. I miss mama a lot. I miss SOME of my friends only! Repeat Some only. Dnt bother asking who i miss or what. Aku malas nak layan! okaY ME GIRL IS DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY ALREADY. i IS GOING BACK TOMORROW. EXCITED NAK MAMPOS. Bye.

Im still waiting for you...

You dont even know don't you. I try very hard, very very hard. But.... sigh. No used saying all this. It wouldn't make me much stronger. RETARD is the word. I think about you like 525 o00 minutes everyday. Do you? NO you dont.:) its okay. CHI ---> bai.

The one that caught my eyes :):):)

Team Australia; Men's hockey

Hayward, No.7; Captain:)

PICTURES pictures pictures!

AWESOME; love them all!

GENESIS-IANS!

LOVED!

DUSTTYY BLOG! MUST UPDATE!

I'm very busy with life ! hahha. wont be updating much! I am happier now . Thanks to you know who :)

JYEAHH!

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.

Thanks for everything. Im just so fucked up abt everything . About you especially. Ya you may forget everything good for you, im still trying . Dont worry I wont come begging you to be with me. FUCK YOU FUCK HIM FUCK HER FUCK EVERYONE FUCK EVERYTHING!

i miss you.

TAURUS - THE TRAMP
AGGRESSIVE. LOVES BEING IN A LONG RELATIONSHIPS. LIKES TO GIVE A GOOD FIGHT. FIGHT FOR WHAT THEY WANT. CAN BE ANNOYING AT TIMES, BUT FOR LOVES OF ATTENTION. EXTREMELY OUTGOING. LOVES TO HELP PEOPLE IN TIMES OF NEED. GOOD KISSER. GOOD PERSONALITY. STUBBORN . A CARING PERSON. THEY CAN BE SELF-CENTERED AND IF THEY WANT SOMETHING THEY WILL DO ANYTHING TO GET IT. THEY LOVE TO SLEEP AND CAN BE LAZY. ONE OF A KIND. NOT ONE TO MESS WITH. ARE THE MOST ATTRACTIVE PEOPLE ON EARTH!

VIRGO-THE ONES THAT WAITS
DOMINANT IN RELATIONSHIPS. SOMEONE LOVES THEM RIGHT NOW. ALWAYS WANTS THE LAST WORD. CARING. SMART . LOUD . LOYAL . EASY TO TALK TO. EVERYTHING YOU EVER WANTED. EASY TO PLEASE. A PUSHOVER. LOVES TO GAMBLE AND TAKE CHANCES. NEEDS TO HAVE THE LAST SAY IN EVERYTHING. THEY THINK THEY KNOW EVERYTHING BUT THEY USUALLY DO. RESPECTFUL TO OTHERS BUT YOU WILL QUICKLY LOSE THEIR RESPECT IF YOU DO SOMETHING UNTRUSTWORTHY TOWARDS THEM AND NEVER REGAIN RESPECT. THEY DO NOT FORGIVE AND FORGET. THE ONE AND ONLY.


P.S: i really miss you.

STRESSED!

I DONT WHY, I JUST CANT SEEM TO COPE WITH THINGS THIS WHOLE WEEK. WHAT THE FUCK AM I THINKING ABOUT. CA1 NEXT WEEK , IM THE FIRST PERSON TO GO . YOU KNOW THE FEELING OF WANTING TO DO SO WELL THAT YOU'RE STRESSING YOOURSELF UP A LOT! THATS HOW IM FEELING RIGHT NOW. I DONT EVEN HAVE ENOUGH REST! HAVE TO GO SCHOOL ON SATURDAY FOR CCA AND SUNDAY UBIN! WOW BEST ARH. THE NEXT DAY EXAM. PANDAI EH AMIRAH. ONE MORE THING STRESSING ME OUT! CHEERLEADING. WHY AM I SO FUCKING FAT! I DONT CARE ARH , FROM NOW ONWARDS IM GOONA START TO REALLY LOSE WEIGHT. AIMING FOR 44KG FOR NOW. THEN SLOWLY TO 40 AND THEN IM HAPPY. FUCK ARH . IF I REALLY CANT LOSE WEIGHT. I DONT CARE ARH BE BASE. BE THE LIGHTEST BASE. CARRY PEOPLE. ITS BETTER. NO NEED TO WORRY SO MUCH . YA I SHOULD DO THAT . BUT STILL HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT AND BUILD MORE MUSCLE EVRYWHERE. YOU DONT WANNA LOOK RETARD ! YA, IN 6 MONTHS TIME IM GOONA BE MUSCULINE STRONG AND FIT AND A LOT MORE LAH. CIBAI LAHH . SO STRESS. AND YOU YES YOU , DONT EVEN GIVE ME YOUR SUPPORT . FINE I DONT NEED IT ANYWAY . I STAND BY MYSELF ! BAI.

DOT!

Had dance today. HIP HOP! Hell yeah AWESOME! LOVE ALL THE PEOPLE. No trouble getting the steps right! hahah . cant wait for next week ! hip hop and later on contemp! spent the whole day dancing lah! Cant wait For the REAL Performance or competition! BEST!But now im so not looking forward to cheerleading on monday! PT! arghhhhghmf.... I just hope that im able to cope dance and cheerleading well. please ah.. okay cibai! now my GOAL is to TRAIN FOR NAFA AND CA1 !

back.

Its been a long time since i last update. Been busy with school . Im studying real hard. I dont want to repeat the same mistake again . Its okay if your not around anymore. I will still be there for myself. I WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT! NOW 46 kg! I want 40! For cheerleading i'll do it . Train real hard and be the best . okay bai!

i cant think.